Best Sambussas Ever!

I have made several sambussa receipes over the years, but this one I made this morning for B's fall fair at school is amazing!  He thinks it "tastes better than Ethiopia" and I think it is just as delicious as my favorite ones we had in Addis Ababa.

• 2 pounds ground beef (as finely ground as possible)
• 2 tablespoons oil
• 1 small onion, chopped
• 1 large shallot chopped
• 1 tablespoon ground coriander (I always just crush mine roughly with a morter and pestle)
• Handfull of cilantro, finely chopped
• 1 green onion, chopped (white and green parts)
• 1 teaspoon ground cumin
• 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
• black seeds from 2 cardamom pods, crushed
• Salt and pepper to taste (We use Tony Chachere's Cajun Seasoning instead)
• 1 jalepeno, seeds and white part removed, finely chopped (if you like spicy, leave them in or add a little sriracha as well)
• 2 cloves garlic, minced
• 2 teaspoons ginger, grated on microplane
• oil for frying
• 1 pack of eggroll wrappers cut in half vertically
• paste of 1/4 c warm water and 1/4 c flour

Saute the onion, shallot, garlic, in oil until soft. Add meat and all other spices. Cook until meat is cooked through, stirring frequently to break up lumps.

Cut the egg roll wrappers in half vertically (so each one is two long rectangles). fold the bottom edge up to form a triangle or cone and past the edge together with flour paste. fill triangle cone with 1 1/2 tsp of filling and flip the bottom corner of the triangle up to the long edge(sealing the to of the triangle. Seal edges with flour paste (including opposite corner) and the fold the remaining flap over the top and seal with flour paste.

Fry in small batches.

AMAZING!

Clean Green Protein Smoothie (like Juice Press)

I got hooked on this smoothie a few weeks ago when I got one for lunch in between meetings, but at $10 a smoothie and a neighborhood that is far away that is not in the cards for me.

Here is my version at a fraction of the cost and with no subway ride required, I think it tastes even better:-)

Makes 1 1/2 servings (1 for me and 1/2 for my toddler)

10 oz water
2 Tbsp Hemp Hearts
1 Tbsp Chia Seed
3 handfuls spinach
1 FROZEN RIPE banana
2 tsp coconut oil
2 tsp almond butter
1/2 tsp vanilla bean paste
1 tsp maple syrup
pinch salt

Process on high in vitamix for about a minute, until smooth

Add ice and process again until smooth (I use 6-7 full sized ice cubes)

It is SO good. It tastes like vanilla ice cream, keeps you full until lunch, and gives you lots of energy.  The hemp hearts are the secret (I got Manitoba Harvest from Amazon).  They have an incredible creamy taste and texture when blended. I tried using almonds when I didn't have hemp hearts and it is not the same:-)  Get the hemp hearts!  Also the banana has to be frozen and it has to be ripe (soft, strong sweet banana smell, starting to get brown spots on the outside) I made one with a greener banana earlier in the week and it was good but not amazing like this!

Edited to add: I made this today and spaced out, leaving out the almond cutter and the vanilla and it was still amazing (not quite as rich but still incredible)!

Speech therapy is working!

B lost his privileges to play with his toy boat tonight.  He was very upset and had much to say about the whole thing (even when he's upset now his pronouns, verbs, and adverbs for his feels are very clear).

My personal favorite comment was:


But mommy, mommy, I have something important to say. This is UNACCEPTABLE.  It is unacceptable that we only have one boat! I need another boat so that when I lose my privileges for this boat I can still play with a boat.  This is unacceptable!

Genes aren't destiny, and other things I have learned from being adopted (fantastic article)

Genes aren't destiny, and other things I have learned from being adopted (fantastic article!)

Head on over to Vox to check-out this interesting article about Todd VanDerWeff's perspective on genes, adoption, nature vs. nurture, and what might have been.

Everyone's experience is different, but lots of great insight for me as a mama and I am hoping to compile many of these for B as he gets older so he can read how others have and are processing their lives and adoptions as he builds his own life and thought processes on all the facets of his life.

What a difference a year makes!

Since our "little angel" is going through a particularly "challenging" time (strong willed kid+being 1+teething+not sleeping+3 days of 104 degree fever+tantrums, tantrums, and more tantrums=mommy and daddy are not amused) I thought a little trip down memory lane might be fun:-) 

Summer 2014 (I think this was June)

Summer 2015 (today:-)

The Egg Free Mug Cake I Have Been Looking for all My Life....(or at least since like 2011)

Mug cakes look great on pinterest and sound fabulous in theory, but mine always seem to taste and feel like biting into a natural sea sponge.

Table For Two Moistest Chocolate Mug Cake Ever

A.m.a.z.i.n.g

gooey, chocolately, velvety, incredible.

I didn't have any chocolate hazelnut spread on hand, so I just dropped a Tbsp of frozen chocolate chips in the center.

So good!!!!  and a perfect quick treat when we don't have an egg free dessert on hand for B.  Tomorrow I am going to try the vanilla version.

Egg-Free Pecan Sticky Buns!

For what feels like forever, I have been trying to find a soft, rich dough for sweet rolls that doesn't use eggs. I have come close in the past, but this time...this time I found magic.  It is rich and yummy and stays soft even after a few days. I may have exploded my butter in the microwave when melting it, and used coconut cream instead of heavy cream b/c we had none in the house, and made my own buttermilk with the last dregs of a gallon of milk and a questionable lemon I found in the fridge, and I almost burnt the caramel, but we didn't care one bit when these gorgeous buns came out of the oven!

Filling and Caramel adapted from Smitten Kitchen

Dough loosely adapted from Mel's Kitchen Cafe

Dough:

1/4 cup buttermilk 

6 tablespoons melted unsalted butter or coconut oil

3/4 cup yogurt (I used Indian style yogurt which is not quite as thick as greek yogurt, but thicker than regular)

4 ¼ cups flour (plus about a 1/2 cup for kneading)

¼ cup  sugar

2 ¼ teaspoons active yeast proofed in 1/4 c warm water with a tsp of sugar

1 ¼ teaspoons salt

Caramel:
1/2 cup  unsalted butter
3/4 cup  brown sugar
3/4 cup  heavy cream or coconut cream (the solid white part in a can of coconut milk)
1/3 cup  honey
1/2 tsp kosher salt (I may have liked up to 1 tsp)

Filling:
1/3 cup packed dark brown sugar
11/2 tsp ground cinnamon
1/4 tsp coarse or kosher salt
1 1/2 tablespoons melted unsalted butter or coconut oil
1 cups toasted and cooled, chopped pecans

2 cups toasted and cooled pecan halves 

Make the dough:Proof yeast in sugar water for 10 minutes

Stir together buttermilk, butter, yogurt in a medium sized bowl

Stir together flour, sugar, and salt in a large bowl

Make a well in the center of the flour mixture, pour in the yogurt mixture and the proofed yeast mixture

Stir together and then when a dough starts to form, turn out onto a silpat and knead

Knead for 15 minutes

Alternately,dump everything into a stand mixer with a dough hook and mix for 10 minutes until you have a supple ball of dough 

lightly coat dough ball in butter or oil, place back in bowl and let rise in a warm place until double (1 1/2-3 hours)

When the dough is doubled, make your caramel base: Melt butter in a medium heavy saucepan over medium heat. Stir in brown sugar, cream, honey and salt. Bring to a boil, then reduce heat to medium-low and simmer until caramel is golden brown and glossy, about 3 to 5 minutes. Pour into a the bottom and up the sides of a deep 9×13-inch baking dish and let the dish cool down in the fridge while you assemble your rolls.

Roll out and fill buns: In a small bowl, stir sugar, cinnamon and salt together. Remove slightly cooled caramel base from fridge and sprinkle it with 2 cups pecan halves. Roll dough into an 18 x 12 rectangle.Brush the dough with melted butter. Sprinkle it with the filling and then 1 cup chopped pecans. Roll dough into a tight 18in long spiral (like a jelly roll). Using dental floss or a sharp serrated knife, cut into 16 sections. Arrange the buns evenly spread out over pecan-caramel base.

Proof buns: Cover with plastic wrap and proof at room temperature for another 1 to 2 hours, until they press tightly together in the pan and look puffed again. Or, you can refrigerate the buns overnight, and up to 16 hours. If chilling overnight, remove from fridge 1 hour before you’d like them to bake. Heat oven to 350°F (175°C).

Bake buns: Bake your buns until they’re puffed and golden (my internal temp was about 180 degrees F), approximately 30 minutes. 

Let rest in pan on cooling rack for 2 to 3 minutes, then carefully and quickly invert onto a large serving tray, nudging any caramel left behind over the tops and sides. Eat warm. Store any leftovers in the fridge, rewarming slightly (like 30 seconds in microwave).

P.S. I know it's been a while.  Apparently, chasing after a very active 1 year old (how did that happen?!?!?!) and an inquisitive 6 year old (why? what? how? when? who? which?...a.l.l. d.a.y. l.o.n.g!!!) and working full time, with a husband applying to medical school (a full time job in and of itself) and an apartment renovation all combined does not leave much time for blogging!  Life in our house consists of answering questions, reading through the Narnia series, rescuing keys/phones/remotes from the toilet and legos (as well as the aforementioned toilet-dunked items) from the mouth of E, and unsuccessfully attempting to get a handle on the ever-growing mountain of laundry! It's crazy and wonderful and exhausting and rewarding and we are embracing life with both hands as time is flying by.  less time for blogging, but more time for living!

My Funny Boys...I love them so!

B will be 6 (!) next weekend. How did that happen?

E will be 9 months old next week.  How did that happen?

Time is flying!

Ababa is in the thick of medical school applications, MCAT retakes, Bio Chemistry class and lab, rehabbing his back from a herniated disk/pinched nerve situation that had him completely bedridden for several weeks and has sidelined him for 2 months.  I am just trying to keep it together at work and home and enjoy my precious, precious boys.  Thankfully, they are awesome and provide tons of laughs to lighten our day.

Recent quotes from B just so we don't forget--this is only the tip of the iceberg, but I have great plans to go to bed early tonight, so keeping it short and sweet:-)

Mommy, do skunks have stinky milk?


Daddy, can we listen to the smooth, sweet, sweet sounds of Bob Marley?

Mommy, in school we learned about a man who wrote music and now he's dead and his name was...(I thought he'd say Bach or Beethoven or Mozart)...Bob Marley.

Mommy, the "hey, hey hey" song is written by Pharrell Williams and Robin Ficke.

Daddy, what is water made of? (molecules of hydrogen and oxygen) What are hydrogen and oxygen molecules made of? (atoms) What are atoms made of? (protons, neutrons, and electrons) What are protons, neutrons, and electrons made of? (quarks) Daddy, what are quarks made of? (um...)  **"why" questions are HUGE in our house right now. I am so grateful for my smart, science-y husband***

E is rockin and rolling and crawling and creeping and pulling up and standing without assistance on occasion and *this* close to walking. He is into everything and is such a good natured little guy.  He still wakes up 3-4 times a night to nurse so I am tired, but he's thriving and we are juggling the nursing/working mom thing in a way that's working for now, so I'll keep nursing at night at least until he turns one and/or decides he's ready to sleep through the night again (like he did from 2 months-5 months). Right now he has hand foot and mouth disease (cocksackie virus) with huge blisters on his hands and a rash and red spots all over his body and he's still cheerful and exploring with determination about 90% of the time.

Sweet brother love! B is such a great big helper with E:-)

Go E, Go!

Look who is officially crawling forwards (backwards crawling and the smoothest, most effective rolling you have ever seen have been happening for months)

Blueberry Muffins

After an unfortunate cooking episode last week that resulted in pancakes that literally tasted like paste (I'm not sure what happened as we have made egg-free pancakes many times before that were delish), I realized that I really do need to document all the eggless recipies that we like.

 Eggless Blueberry Muffins
Ingredients:
2 cups all-purpose flour
3/4-1 cup sugar
4 tsp. baking powder
1 6-7 oz container plain greek yogurt (I used chobani 0%)
1 c water
zest of 1 lemon
1/4 tsp salt
pinch of nutmeg
 4 Tbs. melted butter
1 1/2 cup fresh blueberries

Heat oven to 350.  Combine flour, sugar and baking powder. Stir in yogurt, water, and melted butter. Fold in blueberries.  Bake at 350 for 25 minutes. This made 18 muffins for us.

Wednesday Recipe: My Big Fat Greek Tacos

I made these on maternity leave and was astounded by how delicious they are!  They take a little time to make, but much can be made ahead, and the leftovers are just as good if not better, so...it's totally worth it:-)

Big, Fat Greek Tacos

Made almost exactly as posted at Mel's Kitchen Cafe

Cucumber and Tomato Relish:

1 tablespoon extra-virgin olive oil

1 tablespoon red wine vinegar

2 firm large tomatoes, seeded and diced

1 English cucumber, seeded and diced

1/2 cup diced red onion

Salt and black pepper to taste

Feta Mint Tzatziki:

1 English cucumber

1 cup plain Greek yogurt

3/4 cup crumbled feta cheese

2-3 cloves garlic, finely minced

2 tablespoons minced fresh mint

Salt and black pepper to taste

Lamb or Turkey:

2 pounds ground lamb or turkey

1 1/2 teaspoons salt

1 teaspoon pepper

1 tsp cinnamon

1/2 cup minced red onion

4 cloves garlic, minced

2 teaspoons dried oregano

3 tablespoons tomato paste

1/4 cup broth (chicken, vegetable or beef)

For the pitas:

6-8 non-pocket pita or soft wrap breads (I made our favorite naan recipe--quick tip, for our stove we need to just cook on medium)

DIRECTIONS

At least one hour or as early as one day before you are serving, prepare the salsa and tzatziki. For the cucumber salsa, toss the olive oil, vinegar, tomatoes, cucumbers and onions in a bowl and season with salt and black pepper as needed. Cover and refrigerate for one hour or up to 24 hours to marry the flavors.

For the tzatziki, peel the cucumber and shred on the large holes of a box grater. Place the shredded cucumber in a clean kitchen towel and wring out the excess water until the cucumber is very dry. In a medium bowl, stir together the strained cucumber, yogurt, feta, garlic and mint. Again, season with salt and pepper to taste. The tzatziki can be refrigerated up to 24 hours. Give it a good stir before serving.

For the meat, heat a large, 12-inch nonstick skillet over medium heat. Cook the ground lamb or turkey with the salt, pepper, onion and garlic, breaking up the meat into small pieces and cooking until the meat is cooked through, 8-10 minutes.

Drain any excess grease. Stir in the oregano and tomato paste and cook over medium heat for 3-4 minutes, stirring often. Stir in the broth and let the mixture simmer for 5-10 minutes. Season with additional salt and pepper to taste.

Warm the pita breads in a cast iron skillet or in the microwave until soft and heated through. Serve the tacos by spooning meat into the center of a pita bread and topping with cucumber salsa and tzatziki.

Pregnancy reminiscing...

Today was my first day back in the office since E's "surprise" labor & delivery.

Because he came early my office was pretty much in shambles, with all kinds of half done projects and notes on it.

I've been back to the office a few times for meetings with my boss with E, and have been working from home for the past 6 weeks, but today was my first day back in the saddle.

It felt weird being at work and not being pregnant...also, it reminded me that I never wrote down anything really about my pregnancy and I don't want to forget.  So, here goes some memories:

• I was sick, really sick, really really sick...throwing up on the sidewalk, and in the subway, and in office trash cans sick...and nauseas 24/7 from 5 weeks until the placenta was delivered.
• When something appealed to me, I ate it, b/c most things did not appeal to me
• My cravings were bitter, sour, citrus, and meat...especially peaches (oh peaches, fresh and frozen, these got me through the summer of unending nausea and heat), lemons, korean food, cappuccinos, SOUP, Chipotle guacamole and chicken, dark chocolate, and cheeseburgers (one of the ways I found out I was pregnant was demanding that Ababa take me to get a cheeseburger at a specific restaurant at the whole other end of Manhattan...the next day I found out I was pregnant:-)
• I LOVED soup, especially homemade tomato soup and Hale & Hearty curried soups
• I hated sugar most of my pregnancy as sweet things (even bananas!) made me feel more sick
• I was tired, so very tired for the whole pregnancy, especially the first 20 weeks
• There were days when I just stared at my computer trying not to vomit for the whole work day
• My boss and colleagues were very supportive and understanding and I worked my tail off when the nausea wasn't totally overwhelming to stay on top of all my work
• I spent a lot of time "faking it" acting like I was fine, healthy, not feeling sick, etc.
• I wore make-up most days just to hide how tired I looked
• My maternity work wardrobe was very limited, so I wore 1 of about 4 outfits everyday from about 24 weeks on
• I had Braxton hicks contracts often from about 24 weeks onward
• When you were active you were really active and I could see my stomach jumping around and feel flutters and kicks fairly early (I think about 15 weeks)
• When you were still you were very still which resulted in a scary and painful 20 week anatomy scan (you wouldn't move at all for about an hour and the ultrasound technician pressed very painfully the whole time trying to get you to roll over, all you would do is one big startle reflex like "the worm" and when I was about 23 weeks I made Ababa drive me to the Dr first thing in the morning b/c I hadn't felt you move for about 12 hours...I was crying and scared, but you were rocking and rolling in there, I just couldn't feel it b/c of where you were positioned
• Ababa did EVERYTHING for us when I was pregnant dishes, cooking, laundry, playing with Samuel, b/c I was so sick and so tired
• Most days all I could do was get Samuel dressed in the morning, sit with him during dinner, read him a few stories when I got home from work, and tuck him in...other than I was throwing up, trying not to throw up, or sleeping
• I ate antacids like candy, especially Rennys peppermint and Walgreens tropical fruit
• I chewed orbit sweet mint gum all the time, until the third trimester when even that made me throw up:-(
• YOU WERE TOTALLY WORTH IT AND I WOULD DO IT AGAIN IN A HEARTBEAT!

Wednesday Recipe: Smoked Turkey Cobb Wraps

So...this isn't as labor intensive as most of our Wednesday recipes, but there is some slicing involved, and the leftovers make GREAT work lunches.

From Mel's Kitchen Cafe (love her recipes!)

For Each Wrap

1 oz cream cheese, light or regular (you can also mix in some blue cheese crumbles!)
1 12-inch tortilla or wrap
2 leaves green or romaine lettuce
4-5 slices thinly sliced smoked turkey (in my experience, Fairway's is much better than Fresh Direct)
4 thin slices tomato
1 large egg, hard-boiled and sliced (B and I skip this)
4 thin slices red onion
1/2 avocado, seeded and thinly sliced
3 strips cooked bacon


I am awful at assembling, so here are Ababa's tips:

Place tortilla on large dinner plate.  Only put filling on the part that is on the inside of the pate (not the part that is on the rim).

Spread the cream cheese evenly over the tortilla. Place the lettuce down the center of the tortilla. Arrange the turkey over the lettuce. Layer the tomato, egg, onion and avocado over the turkey and top with the bacon. Roll up tightly and slice in half diagonally. Serve immediately.

Ginger Pork Lettuce Cups and "Wednesday Recipes"

When I go back to work in the office after Easter, I'll be working from home on Wednesdays.  Most nights dinner will be crock pot or something quick, but on Wednesdays I am planning to make tasty dinners that may involve more chopping and a little more time.  Bonus points if they will make great lunches for Thursday and Friday.

These delicious Ginger Pork Lettuce wraps that I made last night definitely fit the bill!

I served them with blistered garlic green beans and steamed white rice...oh yeah, and this (well a modified version using stuff I had on hand).

Ginger Pork Lettuce Wraps
adapted from Food and Wine

Filling:
3/4-1 lb ground or minced meat (I used 3 boneless pork chops)
1/2 red bell pepper, finely diced
1 stalk celery, finely diced
8 oz mushrooms, finely diced
6 cloves garlic, minced
2 tablespoon minced or microplaned peeled ginger
2 tablespoon Thai sweet chile sauce
1 tablespoon Asian fish sauce
1 tablespoon Asian toasted sesame oil
2 teaspoons soy sauce
Sriracha to taste (I used about 1 tsp)
1 tablespoon plus 1 teaspoon neutral oil
2 scallions, thinly sliced

Topping:
4 radishes, finely diced
1 english cucumber, finely diced
2 scallions, finely chopped
2 tablespoons rice wine vinegar
1 teaspoon sesame oil
1 teaspoon soy sauce
1 tsp light brown sugar
garlic and ginger microplaned to taste
2 tablespoons chopped cilantro

24 Boston lettuce leaves

Topping Instructions:
Mix all topping ingredients together in a small bowl and set aside.

Filling Cooking Instructions:
Mix meat with ingredients listed ginger through soy sauce.

In large saute pan, heat oil on high, toss in garlic and stir.  As soon as garlic loses its raw taste toss in the rest of the vegetables and the meat mixture.  Cook on high 8-10 minutes or until meat is cooked and sauce isn't super runny.

To serve, scoop meat into washed lettuce leaves and spoon topping over meat at table.  Roll up the leaves as you eat.


*I think the water chestnuts called for in the original recipe would be delish, but Ababa HATES water chestnuts.
**Next time I think I would use 2 stalks of celery and the whole bell pepper and a little more Sriracha

TGIF

Our car is in the shop...

I had to do school pick-up yesterday and today.

Yesterday I took E in the stroller, but quickly realized that carrying a 22lb stroller with a nearly 14 lb baby and about 10 lbs of diaper bags, backpacks, and coats up multiple flights of stairs in multiple subway stations, while chaperoning two 5 year olds was not the best idea 8 weeks post-partum.

Today I wore E in the Boba with the bottom cinched in some since he's still a little small for it.  He's not as comfortable in it as in the ring sling, but I wasn't so sure about wearing the ring sling for such a long time, including walking across Central Park, since my back and pelvic girdle hurt from yesterday.

1. I should have worn the ring sling, I think we both would have been more comfortable

2. I hate the M4 bus.  Every time I take it I say this, and everytime I am leaving B's school I wait for it b/c the stop is right there...but a 30 minute wait for the bus and then an hour and a half bus ride home in Friday traffic in a rush hour bus...even though it was cold and drizzly I should have walked back across Central Park and taken the B/C to the A like I did going there.  Never again M4, never again.

3. The M4 does offer some priceless moments though.  Today's was a very vocal 8ish year old boy, let's call him Nosy Ned.  E was fussy and after about 30 minutes on the bus had a total meltdown and really needed to nurse.  I had to take off the Boba vest, unhook the Boba, get him situated, pull up my fleece and shirt, unhook my nursing bra, and try to use the vest to cover up while in a rush hour bus that was packed like sardines and moving as slow as molasses.

Nosy Ned sidles up to me with  constant stream of chatter.  B announces to the bus that I am covering E.  Nosy Ned stage whispers to B that it's for "privacy".  Nosy Ned starts commenting on how long E has been nursing (approx. 5 minutes, but to Nosy Ned that was an eternity).  Nosy Ned goes on and on with the culminating topic being teeth.

(the whole conversation, I am trying to stay reasonably covered up with the vest and making sure that E is breathing and latched and doesn't slide off my lap with all the stops and starts of the bus).
NN:Is he teething yet?
Me: No
NN: Does he have any teeth yet?
Me: No
NN: Well, that's good b/c when he's teething he'll have teeth and then he'll bite you when he nurses.
Me: *speechless*
NN: That's what me and my sister did. Well, I don't know about my sister, but I know I did that. So, watch out because he'll bite you hard and it will hurt.
Me: Um...I am looking forward to that...I mean, not looking forward to that...I mean...(mouth just drops open)

NN's mom and friend are standing behind him. B is busy trying to figure out if it's a brother or a friend (love that, b/c NN was blond haired and blue eyed and friend was Southeast Asian and B totally thought that they were brothers at first).  NN's mom was cracking up but didn't intervene at all.

Only in NYC...

Perfect Eggless King Cake

I married a man from Louisiana, and I lived there for 2 years in grad school.  By far, my fave Louisiana treats are shrimp po'boys (fully dressed with only a little mayo), pecan pralines, and king cake.

My husband makes amazing pralines, the best shrimp po'boys come from a little gas station in my husband's home town, and I make King Cake usually just once a year here in NYC (though when in Louisiana I will happily inhale King Cake from the end of Epiphany through Fat Tuesday, usually from the local Rouses grocery store bakery in my husband's home town), so when I make it I want it to be great!

It's taken me three years, but this is the perfect king cake recipe with no eggs!  Sometimes eggless yeast doughs can be dry and tough and I have never made a confectioners sugar glaze that didn't have a weird after taste.  I always preferred the Rouses King Cakes to mine, which NEVER happens, I am not a grocery store bakery over homemade kind of girl.  But this year...score one for mama!

Mama's King Cake

Dough
1 cup milk
1/2 cup butter
2 pkg active dry yeast
1 cup warm water
1/2 cup white sugar
1 1/2 tsp salt
1/2 tsp grated nutmeg
5 1/2 cups all purpose flour

Filling
3/4 c brown sugar
3/4 c white sugar
1 1/2 TBSP cinnamon
3/4 all purpose flour
1/2 cup very soft or melted butter
1/2 tsp salt

Icing
2 cups powdered sugar
1/4 cup heavy cream
1 tsp vanilla
purple, gold, and green sanding sugar

For Dough

• Scald milk, remove from heat, add butter, salt, and nutmeg
• Dissolve yeast in warm water with 1 Tbsp sugar, wait approx. 10 minutes for it to get foamy
• When milk/butter mixture has cooled to warm but not hot, add to yeast mixture
• stir in remaining sugar and flour, knead 8-10 minutes.  Dough should be a little sticky but easy to work with. If too dry, add warm water or milk 1 Tbsp at a time.
• Coat in butter or neutral oil, let rise covered in a warm place for 2 hours (until double)
• Cut dough ball in half
• Roll each half out into 10x17 rectangle

For Filling

• Mix all filling ingredients into a paste
• Spread on each dough rectangle

For Cake

• Roll up each dough rectangle to form long roll and join the ends to shape into an oval
• Bake at 330 for 20-25 min, until top is just starting to be golden on the edges
• Mix powdered sugar, vanilla, and cream to desired consistency and spread or pour on top of cooled cake
• Top with sanding sugars

Our favorite newborn baby items so far...

My SIL is expecting a baby boy this summer, so before I forget I wanted to share our favorite baby items so far...We really do love everything we have for the baby as we tried to keep our list very streamlined and intentional. Pretty much everything was either purchased from craigslist, received as a gift, or gotten from our local parents listserve. We can't wait for baby E to be able to enjoy the toys and books and other items he received, but right now, at this newborn stage, these are our essential items:

Our Top 10 11 14 Baby Items

Dutailier Glider (we got ours in great condition for $25 off of craigslist!) and use it with this nursing stool since we don't have room for an ottoman.

Aden and Anais Swaddle Blankets (we received these as a gift and use them for EVERYTHING, swaddling the baby, make-shift nursing cover, wiping spit-up or breastmilk leaks...super cute and super handy!)

Rock and Play Sleeper (this is the only place baby E will sleep besides my chest.  We did put the wedge insert from our Uppababy Cruz stroller in the seat to make it not such a steep angle and he was still too little for this the first few days home from the hospital, but now...now this sleeper is AMAZING and we are still using it with the insert)

Britax Pavilion Car Seat (we skipped the newborn bucket seat in favor of this, it's an amazing seat and will last baby E for several years)

Earth Mama Angel Baby Mama Bottom Balm (a life saver those first few days after labor, especially if you have stitches!)

Little Joeys Newborn Cloth Diapers (buy the brand name ones, the knock-offs from ebay look like the same design but seem to leak:-(  We have other newborn cloth diapers too, but these are our favorite and the only ones that Ababa will use)

Wool Nursing Pads (whatever you do, stick with medium.  Do not get the largest size as they are literally the size of dinner plates! These are way more comfortable than the cotton pads and don't leave you feeling damp)

Green Mountain Diapers Newborn Prefolds (Absolutely the best prefold diapers!  The newborn size work great on baby E as diapers, but also function as burp clothes, spit up wipers, heavy duty breast pads, changing table liners, and pretty much anything else you can imagine.  We have newborn and infant sizes and used both to stuff B's pocket diapers.  We used these for 2 years with B and will likely use them for the next 2-3 years with baby E.  Our favorite cover is the rumparooz newborn but we also use thirsties)

Womb Sounds (this youtube link has increased our nighttime sleep by 50%)

Zutano Booties (these actually stay on and keep baby E's feet warm. We will be getting the next size up when he outgrows these.  They are great for a winter baby!)

Snusa Monitor (baby E sometimes likes to stop breathing which is terrifying and I have a friend whose son died of SIDS, so this monitor gives me some peace of mind at night...I do have a love/hate relationship with this monitor as it does have some false alarms when it comes out of contact with the baby, but I would rather that than the alternative...)

MIracle Blanket E is a great sleeper during the day, but the Miracle Blanket is living up to its name at night!  He LOVES it.

Sleeping Baby Productions Linen Ring Sling This is working SO much better for us than the Sleepy/Boba Wrap.  I think it may be the perfect newborn carrier and will also be handy in the summer b/c the linen is so breathable.  Plus I got it in purple with black rings and it is gorgeous!!!

Graco Sweet Slumber Machine Since the white noise/womb sounds have become part of E's necessary nighttime routine (for the whole night!) we invested in this so we could reclaim our laptop for work in the evenings.

I am still searching for the perfect nursing bra, nursing cover, and newborn baby carrier (baby E won't be big enough for our beloved Boba 2G carrier until he's almost 1).  I'll keep you posted when I find the right ones.  I just ordered materials to make nursing covers and to convert a regular bra to a nursing bra, so hopefully those projects will be successful.  Also, our sleepy/boba wrap is great, but difficult to maneuver in slushy NYC winters.  I just ordered a sleeping baby productions ring sling and hope that will be a winner (and it is!).

Welcome baby E and "scrummin' on the old man Joe"

Well, impatience must run in our family, because baby E made his debut on January 26, more than 2 weeks early.  We are in love:-)

My water broke, fast and hard contractions started immediately, and somehow my labor stalled about 12 hours in (turns out baby E was posterior, and tilted, and in general just wasn't a big fan of labor). There were lots of complications (group B strep, meconium, heart rate decelerations for baby E, hyperemesis for me to the point of vomiting blood and being severely dehydrated, a fever for me, baby E not tolerating pushing, and an IT guy who had to come into the delivery room to fix the frozen fetal monitor!...), labor was almost 40 hours long--the first 24 hours were totally natural and then I chose pitocin and an epidural over a c-section--at the end there was a vacuum and a small episiotomy, and literally until he was crowning, the midwife thought that I would still need to have a c-section...but, praise God I had a vaginal delivery and have had a very easy recovery.

Baby E was quite banged up from delivery (a big ridge on his forehead, small hematoma on the back of his head, etc. but he has a full head of straight black hair that covered it all up, so he just looks cute:-)  He's a great nurser and is gaining weight like a champ!

B has been a fabulous big brother and we are feeling very, very blessed.  Despite the difficult pregnancy and labor, about 12 hours after delivery I looked at DH and was like "let's do this again"...hormones are a powerful thing!!!  I pretty much did the same thing after we adopted B.  We were in the trial by fire period of the first week and I was already like, let's start another adoption.  Whether through pregnancy, adoption, or both, Ababa and I would very much like to have a third (and maybe fourth) child.  So, we'll see what God has in store for us...right now we are lovin' life with B and E.

B really, REALLY wanted a girl, so he's already got a plan that "mommy has more eggs, so we can have a girl next...and if we have three baby girls that's call triplets" YIKES!  B's family planning is even more extreme than mine:-)

B is obsessed with "I've been working on the railroad" lately and knows all the words...in his own fashion....he is convinced there is a "dino" in the kitchen and that someone is "scrummin' on the old man Joe".  He cracks me up:-)

I love my boys!

Mommy, she looks like me!

Last week, B and I were in the elevator and our Dominican neighbor and her daughter (who is exactly B's age, they share a birthday!) got in.  We see them all the time, but this day was different.

They got off the elevator, and B looked at me with wide eyes.  "Mommy" he said "She looks like me, that mommy looks like me".

"How does she look like you?" I asked, trying to clarify what he was seeing as well as take a minute to formulate my response. Even after 2 1/2 years of reading "The Colors of Us" with him and talking about all the beautiful and yummy colors different people are, this is the first time he's talked about this.

"She's brown like me" he said, rubbing the back of his gorgeous brown hand. "She has brown skin"

"She does" I said.  "Sometimes mommies and their babies have the same color skin and sometimes they don't."

"What color skin do I have", I asked?

"Yellow" was his response.

"What color skin does daddy have?" I asked.

"Brown" he said, "but not the same as me."

We talked about how daddy is chocolate brown and B is honey brown and the baby will probably be honey brown like B (and that mommy is yellow, he's sticking to that:-) and that people in families can be different colors and we are still a family.  I am his mommy even though our skin is different colors.

And then we went for our walk.

But he's talked about his brown skin and my yellow skin several times this week. it is clearly top of mind for him right now.

My sweet, sweet boy. I am and always will be your mommy.  You are adopted, which is very special, and often children who are adopted are a different color than their parents (just like Horace is spotted and his parents are striped, and just like Rosie is brown and her family is grey and Choco is a bird and Mrs Bear is his mama).

You'll see when the baby arrives, that even if you had been born from me, we would probably still be different colors. I could be purple and you could be green and daddy could be blue, and we would still be a family.

Mommy and Daddy love you so much and we are so proud to be your parents!!!

You are a Who!

Great Post that I am Saving to Read my Children "For the Onlies"

I love this excerpt (but you should really read the whole post:-)..

To the only black girl in her school batting away swinging ponytails while combating a limited retelling your her-story choosing to begin with slavery rather than your Motherland. To the only Latina on campus who thinks in another language, constantly making translations in your head. To the only Asian girl always assumed to be from somewhere else, somewhere far. To the only Indian girl whose name reflects her parent's fears of a future of discrimination. To the only Native American girl whose image of self is hidden behind stereotypical mascots of male faces. To the only biracial girl in the neighborhood who is always bracing to hear the question, "What are you?"

May you know that your history is vast, your language beautiful, your home here. May your full name embody your full self. May you know stories of significance, of wonder, of greatness that look just like you. May you know that you are a who.  

This is what I want for my children!

For my son who has two cultures....who is completely Ethiopian and completely American and should not have to choose one or the other.  For the child growing within me who will likely spend their whole life being asked "what are you--are you black or are you white?" who should also not have to choose to define themselves as one or the other.

Each of my children is special.  Each of my children is unique.  Each of my children are multi-faceted.  They are both and they are beautiful and they are whole.  Their very self is so much more than the sum of their parts.  They may be or look different than many of their peers, and they may defy labels.  I want to celebrate all the incredible aspects that make them, them.

You are special, your history matters (all of it, both of it, the complicated parts and the obvious parts)...your heritage and language are beautiful (even if you no longer remember how to speak your first language(s), it is still a part of your heritage)...your home is here (you are not a partial-citizen or a second-class citizen)...and your home is there (it may no longer be as familiar as where we now live, but your birth country is also your home and we will celebrate it always and try to keep it an important part of your life that you recognize as home)..May your full name embody your full self. May you know stories of significance, of wonder, of greatness that look just like you. May you know that you are a who.  

You are a who!